I had been thinking about this day for a while and I hade a vision of how I wanted to spend my day. I had pictures of mountains, drumming, a close friend or two and silence. Instead of listening to this call I ended up assisting a group meditation in a very hot zome with lots of people and a lot of singing and a guided meditation.
I don’t have anything against guided meditation or groups of people ; ). It’s just that I knew what I longed for and decided to – once again – ignore this feeling and let someone else guide me. It was ok and I wanted to have this experience but I have a strong feeling that I need to act on the cues my soul are wispering to me. Ok, sometimes it is actually yelling it in my ear, ha, ha!
I am my guide
This is becoming clearer and clearer to me. I have to satisfy my own needs instead of waiting for someone else to do it for me. I am my own guide and I know what I need to grow and mova forward.
Not that long ago I didn’t know what I wanted. I felt like trying a couple of things out in order to find out. This time is over now and I need to adapt to this. It’s time for me to step up and give myself what I know is calling to me. This feels great and scary at the same time. And that’s ok. I can live with uncertainty. I can live with change. In fact I really like change (I’m a Scorpio ; ). What I can’t stand is to repeat the same situations over and over.
Afterwards
After the group meditation I walked further up the mountain with a close friend of mine. We went to our favourite spot, here:
And I drummed and drummed for what seemed like ages. It was so great to feel the rythm of the Earth under my feet and to feel this amazing and at the same time grounding energy fill my body. I was born to do this. To drum on the top of a mountain. Offering my Love and Light to the World. Afterwards we picked a card from my Guardian Angel deck. My card said: You need peace and quiet right now. Mmm.
I felt so great and full of energy and on my way home I saw a beautiful huge bird. It came back twice for me to see it. Thank you : ). This is what happens when I nourish my soul. This is what it feels like when I trust my gut feeling. Thank you.
I wish you a wonderful day!
Warm hugs, Karina
