I can feel how I’m slowly getting into the end of the year mood. Now is the time when I look back at my year and see what happened. What dreams came true and what didn’t work out as I planned.
So far I’m spending quiet time with myself and I’ve felt the strong urge to quit sugar and coffee (again ; )
and to meditate every morning – even if it’s only for 5 minutes. I’m on my second day and I feel good. As usual for me it’s more difficult to decide to make a change than it is to actually do it. My sugar cravings have disappeared under layers of rice crackers with peanut butter and oranges : ).
In the last few weeks I have given my mind/brain/ego all the space it has asked for and this has resulted in daydreams about the following topics:
- I inherit a huge amount of money from a relative I’ve never heard of. Each time I daydream about this the amount increases.
- I meet a very rich prince charming who sweeps me off my feet and all my problems dissapear.
- Someone Very Important, like Oprah, contacts me regarding an incredible work opportunity that will give me instant fame and fortune.
These interesting daydreams are also accompanied by lots of surfing around on very successful people’s websites thinking of how unfair life is and how I will never make a decent living doing what I love.
This doesn’t quite sound like me, does it? Well, although I accept (with difficulty ; ) that this is also a part of me it seems very clear that when I start having these thoughts I am not giving myself the space and care I need.
I’m a pretty optimistic person and I easily see the good parts in most people I meet. Since I started my own business 10 months ago I have been so amazed by all the beautiful souls who have crossed my path. My clients are such brave and loving people with a true longing for deeper meaning and growth in their lives. I am a part of Leonie Dawson’s Goddess Circle where I have met some of the most incredible and generous women ever. Four of the women I met in the circle are now part of an amazing MasterMind Group where the support and love is endless. Hello, Abundance!
So why am I in this space of thinking that if only I had lots of money my life would be different, easier, better?
One reason for this is that I sabotaged myself by thinking that everything was going too well and that my life flowed too easily. How is that ever possible??? I guess having grown up with the mantras “Work hard”, “Life isn’t easy” has definitely influenced me. But one of the big reasons is that I stopped taking time out for myself. I stopped going for long walks and I stopped doing things just for fun.
Having a family with young children can sometimes be very intense and I easily loose myself in all the attention I so freely give to them. Of course having a family means being immersed in unconditional love and that is gorgeous but I know how important it is to also take time off to take care of myself.
If you are feeling tired or if you need to get into a healthier mind set here are my top 3 ways to feel better:
- Go outside! Even if it’s cold or if the rain is pouring down, get your warm clothes on and go for a walk. Nothing soothes our souls like Mother Nature. Even if you only spend a few moments outside it will lift your spirit.
- Eat well. I know, if you’re anything like me all you want to eat is chocolate and comfort food but don’t. If you crave sweetness make a great dessert using raw food (dates, raw chocolate, bananas). The right food balances your body and helps you feel better.
- Spend some quiet time alone. You can meditate, do yoga or just sit down and breathe slowly. When my mind is buzzing too much to keep quiet I listen to a guided meditation. Jackie Stewart offers these for free and they are just Beautiful.
Wow, I really stepped out of my comfort zone sharing this much about what goes on in my head but I feel lighter and hope that it will help you to read about someone else struggling with the same monsters as you do : ).
Sending you all my Love,
PS: Join me and grab your own copy of Leonie’s Yearbook & Planner! It’s awesome and it’s only 9,95 USD (and 17, 90 USD for both the Life & Business editions). If you want to go all out and give yourself or someone you love a one year membership to the Goddess Circle it’s an awesome idea!
Karina, today I felt the need to be in nature and in need of a new view……so Roxy (my doy) and I went to a different park than usual, and it was SO rejuvenating…..driving home I actually had the thought, ‘wow, nature always does that for me’.
Truly enjoyed this post and LOVE your pic up top – that stone is so cool! Love it!
Thank you, Gina! Yes, being in nature is always so powerful. No matter how we feel. I’m so glad you enjoyed my post. Big hugs, Karina
Karina thank you so much for sharing your Monsters with us. We all have them, those little niggly buggers that will allow us to feel crappy and all ‘who do you think you are wanting that?’ but with monsters come fairy tale heroes…. I call my hereos Courage, Creativity and Clarity.
xooxox Shine that gorgeous light babe!
I love your heroes, Nicole! Thank you : ). Big hugs, Karina
I fantasize about Ellen Degeneres reading my book and inviting my on my show to surprise me with the info that it’s become a New York Times best seller. :D
My monsters actually dwell on horrible things like having to give up my son because I can’t support us. Can’t wait to heal that fear.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts. The image of you at an outside altar is gorgeous!
Your fantasy sounds great, Ashley! I know thse horrible monsters too… they’re scarier. I kept dreaming that I was losing my kids in a big crowd for a while and that was not so great. Thank you for sharing. I really appreciate it : ). Big hugs, Karina
Hello, Karina, I’ve been going through much the same as you’ve written about here! Craving sweet food, getting more daydreamy, facing the fear that my business will NEVER be successful…! It’s all there~ and I guess it’s simply part of the process of moving forward.
Hi Christine, I’m glad I’m not the only one : ) and I do think you are right about this being a part of creating a business. Big hugs, Karina
I am one of those who deepest inside believe that we life comes to us…Life…that we actually dont have to “do”, plan with a big P etc. I believe it is mostly about letting go…monster-minds have their time, then we let them go…cravings have their time, then they go (if we let them). I believe that by all this huge Wanting we get somehow a craving mind…and at the bottom of that is fear. Roughly speaking. Nature, good food and time for oneself is essential, absolutely. We are all worth all good, does not mean the meaning of life is all this material good. We are even more worth our real Self…which I believe we cannot create ourselves. I do think we need to respect our different processes…I also believe there is a rest waiting for us, just a matter of making space..that is: let go of plans, goals, in a way dreams…everything…left with an open heart…wow! but that is my point of view…You truly are brave Karina, being open about all this…”openness” qi-state of mind (if you get it). Love from a constantly snowing Sweden
I love how you articulate that, Maria. I’m constantly going back and forth between different beliefs and now I wish to just be clear about what my dreams are and then let go of trying to control and make them happen. It has helped me a lot to at say them out loud as opposed to just letting my life float by… But no, craving and wanting too much definitely takes us further from our true self, our essence.
Snow sounds lovely : ). Love, Karina
Vulnerable and amazing
Thank you, Tara! This was a scary one to post. Big hugs to you